Im so sick of being sick!! yes...i am very lucky..i haven't gotten sick til now..but why does it have to be now?A lot of people say im strong..but no i dont think so... I've just been lucky & blessed to not experience such sickness associated with my treatment. & though...earlier i vomited & had a bad headache... i say im a baby... i can't imagine going through this on a daily basis as some people do. I really look up to those people (like my auntie ancha') who become so sick..have to go to the emergency room a couple of times...but come out of it happy..i think if i was her i would be soo soo very much depress! Just this last treatment i experienced something called "chemo fog"... people asked me before if i experienced it, but no..not until this week... Chemo fog.. is like forgetting what you were about to say just as you were going to say it..or reading a sentence over & over again...& still not understanding what you are reading. Some could say thats my beya-ness...but i definitely didnt feel like myself.. so i couldn't even read an article in a magazine during my clinic treatment.
i was really looking forward to this weekend & upcoming week... we have a 5/6 hr drive to San Fransisco tomorrow...that i am definitely not looking forward to! But hopefully the ride will be worth it... im excited to see the golden gate bridge...something california is known for! Then we will go over to san jose for auntie lori's birthday! Also dita is coming over on monday! yay!!!!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
My bucket list.....
Before I had found out I had cancer..I was completely content with living my life like tomorrow will always be there. I was a major procrastinator & probably still am...But what has changed is that... I learn life is too short...& i do have so many things i want to try, overcome, & accomplish... So this is my list (in no particular order)
1.Get my BA...my master..probably law degree or PhD.
2.Build my home (hopefully before i turn 25)
3.Get breast implants (pls. dont judge me =D )
4.Learn to fly a plane
5.Learn to surf
6.Build a treehouse & decorate like its not a treehouse..probably hellokitty theme
7.Help the homeless & needy in some way..& not just by giving money
8.Get married (huge wedding)
9.Learn to dance professionally..ballroom/salsa/tap/belly dance..etc.
10.sky dive
11.run a marathon
12. get back into swimming..if not everyday atleast once a week
13.learn chamorro..& become fluent (so i can finally have a real conversation with my nana)
14.learn & become fluent in another language
15.Learn to shoot a gun
16.witness the aurora (northern lights)
17.scuba in the great barrier reef
18.visit the 7 wonders of the world whether it be the ancient,medieval, or modern wonders (preferably these : 1.the great pyramid of giza 2.the leaning tower of pisa 3.the great wall of china 4.the catacombs in egypt 5.the roman Colosseum 6.the taj mahal 7.mount rushmore)
19.learn to sculpt
20.take a cooking/baking class
21.Hot air balloon
22.become financially literate & invest in the stock market
23.swim with dolphins
24.Ride an elephant or camel...preferably the elephant
25.Go & watch the olypmics
26.Meet the pope
27.Ride a horse
28. get my range roover.. or 2nd best the jeep commander
Thats all for now!...i'll add more as other goals come to me =D
what's on your bucket list??
withlove,BA
1.Get my BA...my master..probably law degree or PhD.
2.Build my home (hopefully before i turn 25)
3.Get breast implants (pls. dont judge me =D )
4.Learn to fly a plane
5.Learn to surf
6.Build a treehouse & decorate like its not a treehouse..probably hellokitty theme
7.Help the homeless & needy in some way..& not just by giving money
8.Get married (huge wedding)
9.Learn to dance professionally..ballroom/salsa/tap/belly dance..etc.
10.sky dive
11.run a marathon
12. get back into swimming..if not everyday atleast once a week
13.learn chamorro..& become fluent (so i can finally have a real conversation with my nana)
14.learn & become fluent in another language
15.Learn to shoot a gun
16.witness the aurora (northern lights)
17.scuba in the great barrier reef
18.visit the 7 wonders of the world whether it be the ancient,medieval, or modern wonders (preferably these : 1.the great pyramid of giza 2.the leaning tower of pisa 3.the great wall of china 4.the catacombs in egypt 5.the roman Colosseum 6.the taj mahal 7.mount rushmore)
19.learn to sculpt
20.take a cooking/baking class
21.Hot air balloon
22.become financially literate & invest in the stock market
23.swim with dolphins
24.Ride an elephant or camel...preferably the elephant
25.Go & watch the olypmics
26.Meet the pope
27.Ride a horse
28. get my range roover.. or 2nd best the jeep commander
Thats all for now!...i'll add more as other goals come to me =D
what's on your bucket list??
withlove,BA
Friday, March 12, 2010
sdzoo.britney.loveboat.coming home to you!
Monday was such a lovely surprise..while Gabe & I were entering the mall, we saw britney spears!! Unfortunately, i was too slow to take my camera out & Gabe didnt want to run to take her picture when i told him to run. Nonetheless, when i least expected i finally got to see a celebrity while i am here in LA! & britney spears too!!! okay..i guess by now you can tell it doesnt take much to impress me.. =)
Tuesday Gabe & I took cambria to the San Diego Zoo. It was an adventure but what was more was heading there!! It was halirious how even with a gps...we got lost! This must be a topper in my blonde moments..if not the top! I will never forget our first family roadtrip! Cambria loves animals in general so she had a blast just as much as she did when we took her to the pet shop at the mall..LOL. She loved all the water features at the zoo & she loved seeing all the people too.. she is my friendly baby..totally opposite from me! I am more shy..& never said hi or bye to stranges when i was her age...i think i should learn more from her & be more friendly... do you agree?
After, our family outing.. Gabe & I had a romantic dinner at this resturant in Burbankcalled
wokcano i wanted to try everytime i go there..so we went & it was not dissapointing..the resturant looks as lovely as the food tasted! I love resturants with vibes like..that.. if your in guam its like nana's cafe or here in the states like the cheesecake factory without the busy-ness!
Oh & if you get the spicy tuna roll at wokcano..it is spicy (or atleast to me)!
What's worse walking away from the one you love or watching them walk away from you when in reality both of you just want to stay together forever & never leave the others' side?
unfortunately, we had to part...& hubby had to go back home, but they say absence makes the heart grow fonder... they say time apart is really a test to see if the relationship will go the distance, so I say... I'll finish up with my treatment...become the better me & as soon as i can i'll come back home i'll come back to you forever! This past 8 days were wonderfully amazing! Gabriel Taitague you are amazing! I am so thankful for having a partner like you. I am so in awe how cambria & you get along great..it makes my heart so happy you love her like she is yours. Im excited to start the rest of our life together!
Tuesday Gabe & I took cambria to the San Diego Zoo. It was an adventure but what was more was heading there!! It was halirious how even with a gps...we got lost! This must be a topper in my blonde moments..if not the top! I will never forget our first family roadtrip! Cambria loves animals in general so she had a blast just as much as she did when we took her to the pet shop at the mall..LOL. She loved all the water features at the zoo & she loved seeing all the people too.. she is my friendly baby..totally opposite from me! I am more shy..& never said hi or bye to stranges when i was her age...i think i should learn more from her & be more friendly... do you agree?
After, our family outing.. Gabe & I had a romantic dinner at this resturant in Burbankcalled
wokcano i wanted to try everytime i go there..so we went & it was not dissapointing..the resturant looks as lovely as the food tasted! I love resturants with vibes like..that.. if your in guam its like nana's cafe or here in the states like the cheesecake factory without the busy-ness!Oh & if you get the spicy tuna roll at wokcano..it is spicy (or atleast to me)!
What's worse walking away from the one you love or watching them walk away from you when in reality both of you just want to stay together forever & never leave the others' side?
unfortunately, we had to part...& hubby had to go back home, but they say absence makes the heart grow fonder... they say time apart is really a test to see if the relationship will go the distance, so I say... I'll finish up with my treatment...become the better me & as soon as i can i'll come back home i'll come back to you forever! This past 8 days were wonderfully amazing! Gabriel Taitague you are amazing! I am so thankful for having a partner like you. I am so in awe how cambria & you get along great..it makes my heart so happy you love her like she is yours. Im excited to start the rest of our life together!
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